Crying

I saw 'The Sea Inside' last week. I cried 3 times. I'm proud of it. That fckn movie was relentless. Tears ran down my cheeks for 3 mins. straight. I felt like a school girl. Now I am watching 'The Pianist' again after having seen it a few years ago. I am almost in tears. I like crying from time to time. Actually, I would like to cry at least once a week if possible. Crying makes me feel human the most and quite therapuetic for my soul. I encourage everyone to cry at least once a month. It feels really great. Equivalent to 10 great laughs. I have never cried looking at a painting or reading a book. That's more of an intellectual exercise. But I have cried over a few songs (usually Beethoven Piano Sonatas and Concertos or a nice Tony Bennett tune) and a few times watching world news (for real). But great movies get me everytime, Casablanca, The English Patient, Gone with the Wind, the Color Purple, etc. My heart aches and I weep. I wish I had the vanity enough to put my tears in vials and label them and keep them frozen in the fridge. A frozen catalogue of my tears. Then one day, in a middle of a party or dinner party at my place, I want to debute my tear gallery and show all that-- I remain human after all these years (in chronological order). Tears of joy, tears of sorrow. Human, all too human. Btw, once, like a true dandy, I cried out of envy. I was particularly pleased about that one. That particular species of tears don't occur that often, if ever.